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  Contents

  About the Book

  About the Author

  Also by Susan Lewis

  Title Page

  Dedication

  Acknowledgements

  Chapter 1

  Chapter 2

  Chapter 3

  Chapter 4

  Chapter 5

  Chapter 6

  Chapter 7

  Chapter 8

  Chapter 9

  Chapter 10

  Chapter 11

  Chapter 12

  Chapter 13

  Chapter 14

  Chapter 15

  Chapter 16

  Chapter 17

  Chapter 18

  Chapter 19

  Chapter 20

  Chapter 21

  Chapter 22

  Chapter 23

  Chapter 24

  Chapter 25

  Chapter 26

  Chapter 27

  Chapter 28

  Chapter 29

  Chapter 30

  Chapter 31

  Chapter 32

  Chapter 33

  Chapter 34

  Copyright

  About the Book

  Claudine Rafferty is rich, reckless and beautiful. So when she throws herself into an arranged marriage with the eminently eligible but notorious François de Lorvoire, everyone in Paris is amazed. Determined to cope with François’ cruelty and indifference, Claudine soon finds herself driven to find love in the arms of Armand St Jacques, one of her husband’s vignerons.

  But all is not what it seems in the de Lorvoire family. As Claudine learns more of François’ sinister past, she also inherits some of his most dangerous enemies. And against a background of betrayal and conspiracy, she is forced to learn not only whom she can trust, but also whom she really loves…

  About the Author

  Susan Lewis is the bestselling author of twenty-seven novels. She is also the author of Just One More Day and One Day at a Time, the moving memoirs of her childhood in Bristol. Having resided in France for many years she now lives in Gloucestershire. Her website address is www.susanlewis.com

  Susan is a supporter of the childhood bereavement charity, Winston’s Wish: www.winstonswish.org.uk and of the breast cancer charity, BUST: www.bustbristol.co.uk

  Also by Susan Lewis

  Fiction

  A Class Apart

  Dance While You Can

  Stolen Beginnings

  Obsession

  Vengeance

  Summer Madness

  Last Resort

  Wildfire

  Chasing Dreams

  Taking Chances

  Cruel Venus

  Strange Allure

  Silent Truths

  Wicked Beauty

  Intimate Strangers

  The Hornbeam Tree

  The Mill House

  A French Affair

  Missing

  Out of the Shadows

  Lost Innocence

  The Choice

  Forgotten

  Stolen

  No Turning Back

  Losing You

  Memoir

  Just One More Day

  One Day at a Time

  This book is dedicated to my father …

  Acknowledgements

  I should like to express my gratitude to Madame La Comtesse du Petit-Thovârs for the help she gave in the preparation of this book. For inviting me into her home and allowing me to base the story around the ancestral home of the Petit-Thouars – though I must stress that no characters in the book are based on her family. My thanks also to Richard Hazlewood for the help and advice he gave, not to mention the many introductions. Also to Monsieur et Madame Rutault and Madame Amos.

  Most especially of all I should like to thank Pamela Brunet and her husband Amedé for the research and translations they carried out on my behalf.

  And lastly my love and thanks to my family and friends for their unwavering support following the death of my father.

  – 1 –

  ‘ARE YOU FEELING nervous, chérie?’

  Claudine’s gaze moved slowly from the passing French countryside to rest upon her father. It was over an hour since they had boarded the train in Paris, but this was the first time either of them had spoken. As their eyes met, Claudine’s full mouth curved into a secretive, almost self-mocking smile, and Beavis smiled too as he watched his extraordinary daughter sweep a hand through the tumbling raven hair that bounced unfashionably around her shoulders, and stretch out her long legs to settle them on the seat beside him.

  She didn’t answer his question, but leaned her head back against the cushion and returned her attention to the passing fields.

  Yes, she was nervous. Who wouldn’t be, in her shoes? But apart from the occasional tug she gave to the feather which curled over the brim of the hat lying in her lap, there was nothing in her manner to indicate either the unease or the excitement that randomly coasted between her heart and her stomach. She looked up ahead and saw the front of the train as it rounded a curve in the track, steam billowing from the funnel in a chain of ephemeral white clouds. Again she smiled, then looking back to her father, who was still watching her, she started to laugh.

  ‘Are you surprised that we’ve come this far?’ she asked.

  ‘If I am, I shouldn’t be.’

  ‘Meaning?’

  He arched his brows comically and pulled at his moustache. ‘You know perfectly well what I mean.’

  ‘That nothing is more irresistible to your hare-brained daughter than territory where angels – perhaps even fools – fear to tread?’

  ‘Precisely.’

  ‘But, Papa, it was your idea,’ she reminded him.

  ‘So it was. I’d almost forgotten,’ he chuckled. Then, more seriously, he added, ‘But we don’t have to be here, chérie.’ He often used the French term of endearment, even when they were speaking English – it was a habit he had fallen into during twenty-seven years of marriage to a Frenchwoman. ‘It’s not too late,’ he continued, ‘we can turn back to England, you have only to say the word.’ For all sorts of reasons, that would now be extremely difficult, but he felt obliged to say it all the same.

  ‘Oh, Papa! To have come all this way and then not actually see him! I should die of curiosity.’

  Satisfied with her answer, Beavis returned to his newspaper. But it took only a few minutes for him to realize that he was reading the same paragraph over and over again. His mind was full of his daughter and the meeting that would take place two days from now at the Château de Lorvoire.

  He took out a cigarette and lit it, filling their first-class compartment with the bitter-sweet smell of Turkish tobacco. As Claudine inhaled the aroma she closed her eyes, reminding him of her mother, and for the first time since her death Beavis was grateful that Antoinette wasn’t there to express her thoughts on what he was doing. Not that he harboured any doubts about bringing Claudine to France – on the contrary, he firmly believed that his plans for his daughter were in her own best interest – but he couldn’t help feeling that Antoinette might have handled things with a little more subtlety.

  But what was he supposed to do? As a man, he had no experience in handling these matters; all he knew was that, at twenty-two, it was high time Claudine was married. Everyone told him so, particularly his sister-in-law, Céline. During Claudine’s debutante year in London Céline had, of course, done her best to introduce Claudine to as many eligible young men as possible – and no doubt several ineligible ones too, if he knew Céline, but at the time Claudine had had other ideas, and she and Dissy, her best friend, had taken themselves off to New York to stay with a girl they had shared a room with at finishing school, Melissa von Merity. Beavis knew the von Merity family, so he had agreed to the p
lan. He hadn’t been prepared for Claudine to spend almost three years in New York, and he most certainly hadn’t been prepared for the fierce independence she had acquired during her stay there – which, together with her inherent sense of humour and her undeniable beauty, had turned her into a force even he found difficult to reckon with.

  She had returned to London six months ago, in time to see in the New Year – 1937. In that time Dissy had married Lord Poppleton, and Claudine, as Céline had told him in no uncertain terms, had been left to run wild. He knew that Claudine had received several proposals of marriage, both in New York and in London, but for reasons known only to herself she had refused them all. So, not unnaturally, he had been more than surprised when she seemed to welcome the suggestion first put to him by his old friends the Comte and Comtesse de Rassey de Lorvoire, that their two families should unite.

  Céline’s response, on the other hand, had come as no surprise at all. She had never, she told him, in her worst nightmares, imagined he would be capable of even considering marrying his precious daughter to a man like François de Lorvoire. Beavis, who was well aware of Parisian society’s views on the Lorvoires’ eldest son, had listened patiently to everything Céline had to say and then told her, quite calmly, that his mind was made up. After which he had extracted her promise that, should Claudine raise no objection to the marriage, she, Céline, would do nothing to dissuade her.

  Yet now, with the hurdle of Claudine’s agreement so easily surmounted, he couldn’t help wondering why his daughter had shown such readiness to accept the proposal. She knew nothing about François de Lorvoire, yet she appeared almost eager to marry him. He was intrigued to know why. She had a will of iron, and he wouldn’t have relished the prospect of fighting her if she had set her mind against the idea. He wondered, too, about the shattering of her illusions yet to come … But Claudine would handle it; he was quite resolved that François was the right husband for her, he admired the man – no matter what Céline might say. Though how Antoinette would have felt about the match did, in truth, unsettle him somewhat.

  Able to read her father’s face only too well, Claudine put aside her hat and leaned forward to take his hand. Her blue eyes were dancing, but her voice was gentle as she said, ‘Papa, I know you’re thinking about Maman and what she would say if she knew what we were about. But try to remember, darling, that I am a grown woman now, I can – and do – make decisions for myself. You know I wouldn’t be here if I didn’t want to be.’

  Beavis’ face clouded for a moment. Then, with a touch of irony, he said, ‘That is precisely what baffles me, chérie. Why, when you’ve had so many offers from men who are eminently suitable, are you so willing to give yourself to a man you’ve never even met?’

  ‘Because it is what you want, Papa,’ she answered, her eyes gravely wide.

  His answering look told her that he didn’t believe a word of it, and laughing, she threw back her head, curled her feet under her, and resting an elbow on the window ledge, was once again intent upon the passing landscape.

  She was amused by her father’s bewilderment, knowing that he had been fully prepared to assert his parental authority on this matter had it proved necessary. Of course, had she not wanted the marriage herself, she’d have fought, and won … She knew he was surprised by her compliance, but thankfully he hadn’t questioned her too closely, so she had not found herself compelled to lie. And lie she would have done, rather than tell him why she was willing to marry François de Lorvoire – a man whom, as Beavis had quite rightly pointed out, she had never met.

  Of course, she had heard a great deal about the de Rassey de Lorvoire family as she grew up. Her father and the old Comte had been firm friends ever since they served together in the Great War, and Antoinette Rafferty and Solange de Lorvoire, François’ mother, had corresponded for many years and had frequently spent time together in Paris. But Claudine had never met the de Lorvoires; she had been at school, or too busy with her horses at Rafferty Lodge to accompany her mother on her shopping sprees. And, curiously, she didn’t recollect any mention ever being made of François, who was fourteen years older than she was, and would surely have been cutting a figure in society long before her mother died. That fact rather amused her now, for what little she had managed to learn about François during the last few weeks suggested that whatever there was to say about him had probably been considered too shocking for her young ears.

  In fact, his reputation was proving to be thoroughly intriguing. Just this past week she had discovered that one had only to mention his name in polite Parisian circles to set the conversation alight with any kind of unsavoury rumour. Take the other night, at the home of Constance and Charles Delaforge. She had gone alone, since Beavis had business to attend to, and had casually mentioned that she was looking forward to meeting the Lorvoire family at the weekend, their eldest son François in particular, because she had heard so much about him. From the look on the faces around her, she might just have let forth a stream of profanities. Constance had glared, Charles had started muttering under his breath, then suddenly the old duchess sitting beside her had drawn herself up, and cried in a voice pinched with distress, ‘I forgive you, Claudine, but only because you cannot know what anguish it causes me to hear that man’s name spoken. If you knew what he has done … Mon Dieu!’ And she had covered her face with her hands.

  Constance had flown to her side to comfort her, but the duchess had continued to quake. ‘Why poor Solange should be cursed with such a son is beyond me,’ she had sobbed. ‘I’m sure it’s why she never comes to Paris now. How could she hold her head up after after what happened … Oh, Constance! Not a day passes but I think of dear Hortense. Poor, poor, Hortense, how we all still miss her.’ And with that, she had swept from the room.

  The duchess’s performance had thoroughly amused Claudine, but she had tactfully hidden her smiles, as she had her curiosity regarding ‘poor, poor, Hortense’ until just the night before, when she had met her friend Henriette at the Hungarian Embassy ball. At first it had proved impossible to get Henriette to speak of anything other than her recent engagement to Claude, the dashing young vicomte she’d arrived with. Claudine had listened with mounting impatience, waiting her chance, until Henriette babbled excitedly ‘And now we’ve to find you a husband, Claudine. Oh, you must marry a Frenchman, please, please. Don’t throw yourself away on one of those stuffy old English, I couldn’t bear it. I want you to live here, in Paris, so I can see you all the time.’

  Claudine’s lovely slanting eyes sparkled with humour. ‘I don’t think that should present too much of a problem, chérie. Now, tell me, what has François de Lorvoire been up to?’

  ‘François de Lorvoire?’ Henriette repeated, clearly surprised by such an abrupt change of subject.

  ‘Henriette, you must have heard. Something to do with …’

  ‘Oh!’ Henriette gasped, covering her mouth with her hand. ‘You mean you’ve heard about Aimée de Garenaux?’ Claudine hadn’t, but was not about to interrupt. ‘Well, I can’t say I’m surprised,’ Henriette rushed on. ‘I should think the whole world knows by now. Such a silly creature she is. Really, Claudine, this time I think one can hardly say it was François’ fault. Except that he might have behaved with a little more chivalry. But then everyone knows that François …’

  ‘Henriette!’ Claudine cried. ‘What happened?’

  Henriette’s pretty green eyes widened with surprise at the impatience in Claudine’s voice. ‘Why this sudden interest in François de Lorvoire?’ she asked, eyeing her friend suspiciously. ‘I wasn’t aware you even knew him.’

  ‘I’ll tell you later. Now, what happened with Aimée?’

  Henriette shrugged, and fluffing out the taffeta folds of her ball gown, she sank into the sumptuous leather sofa behind her. ‘Well,’ she said, ‘the stupid girl took it into her head not only to fall in love with him, but to follow him to Lyon. You know, Claudine, why everyone makes such a fuss about him is quite beyond me, it g
ives me the shivers just to look at him. Have you ever seen him? It’s like coming face to face with the devil … Anyway, as I said, Aimée followed him to Lyon. Everyone is trying to say now that François abducted her, but it’s not true. I’m not saying he’s not capable of such an outrage, but in this instance Aimée confessed to me before she went that she intended to make him marry her. I warned her what he was like, but she wouldn’t listen. Maybe I should have told her mother, but she’d sworn me to secrecy, and how was I to know it would end the way it did?’

  ‘How did it end?’ Claudine asked, enjoying the story immensely.

  ‘She went to his hotel late at night, and told the people on the desk that she was his wife, so they let her into his room. When he came back, she was there, waiting for him. She then informed him that if he didn’t agree to marry her she would tell the whole world he had forced himself upon her – raped her! At least, that’s what she told me she was going to do. I can only assume she went ahead with her plan, but what François said – or did – in response I have no idea, Aimée refuses to talk about it now. All I know is that he left her there, alone, in the middle of the night, and returned to Paris. Whether he actually ravished her before he left, none of us knows, but I imagine he did. Anyway, he went straight to her home, got her father out of bed to inform him of his daughter’s whereabouts, and told him that if the girl was no longer a virgin he had no doubt the blame would be laid at his door, but that Monsieur de Garenaux was to understand he had no intention of marrying her. And now poor Aimée, stupid Aimée, has been shipped off to Morocco to stay with her grandparents. You may well laugh, Claudine,’ Henriette said, her own lips beginning to twitch, ‘but what if poor Aimée is pregnant?’

  ‘Somehow I rather doubt it,’ Claudine answered. ‘Don’t you?’

  ‘If it were anyone but him, I would. But, oh là, she was so stupid. If only she had listened to me. The man is not only a philanderer but a confirmed bachelor, everyone knows so. As he told my papa once, there is not a woman alive who could change his mind on that point. Though if you ask me, he flatters himself to think that anyone would want to. The only reason why women throw themselves at him the way they do – and usually they’re given a hefty push by their mothers – is because he is so rich and will inherit the de Lorvoire title when his father dies. It certainly has nothing to do with looks or charm. But now you are to tell me, why are you asking about him?’